Friday, May 15, 2009

not what i was hoping for

I had my 2nd appt today. I'm 10 weeks and 3 days. The doctor said we should be able to hear the heartbeat and I was so excited. I was around 10 weeks with Raven when I heard her heartbeat for the first time.

He searched for what seemed like eternity, to no avail. He was not at all worried, and said it's pretty much hit or miss at 10 weeks. I put on a front and pretended like I wasn't worried. I don't know why, probably because he wasn't worried. He said I could have an ultrasound but it wouldn't be until next week. He acted like it was unneccessary so I said no. He said he'd see me in 4 weeks and we'd definitely be able to hear it then.

By the time I hit the seat of the car, I was bawling. I called Hubby who met me back at work. I couldn't stop sobbing and he told me I should have asked for the ultrasound. So I called back and scheduled one.

My friend was 10 weeks when they couldn't find a heartbeat, did an ultrasound, and found out there was in fact no heartbeat. She didn't miscarry for another 2 weeks after that. So needless to say I'm freaking out.

My ultrasound is scheduled for Wednesday, until then I'll just try to not to drive myself crazy.

2 cleansing comments:

Marni's Organized Mess said...

Just thinking good thoughts... I will be for you. Only a few days and your ultrasound will be here. Hang in there sweetie. It will all work out fine.

Anonymous said...

The heartbeat is amazing to hear! It will come soon enough!

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