I just got the call. "I wanted to let you know that we have chosen another candidate. You had a great interview."
I didn't get the job.
My interview ROCKED. I was sure it was in the bag.
Originally I had wanted to take another year off. When this job came up I wasn't going to apply. I eventually decided to put it in God's hands. I'd apply and let Him decide.
And that was the plan.
So why do I feel so darn crappy?
Like a failure?
Like I'm not good enough?
Like I'm never going to get a job if that interview didn't land me a job?
Why am I sad?
I get to spend more time with my kids. And that's really what I want. Right?
But I was SO confident the job was mine.
Make this yucky feeling go away.
It's amazing what one day can do. I'm feeling at peace with the decision that was made. I had the most wonderful day with my girls and realized I was taking my time with them for granted.
Not only did God not want me to get the job, he wanted to teach me a lesson in humility. Everything I've ever tried out for I've gotten. Cheerleading, show choir, dance team, other jobs. I don't know what it's like to "lose", and it was tough.
Home is where God wants me to be right now, and I'm okay with that.