Wednesday, May 12, 2010

God has another plan

The following was written yesterday.

I just got the call. "I wanted to let you know that we have chosen another candidate. You had a great interview."

I didn't get the job.

My interview ROCKED. I was sure it was in the bag.

Originally I had wanted to take another year off. When this job came up I wasn't going to apply. I eventually decided to put it in God's hands. I'd apply and let Him decide.

He decided.

And that was the plan.

So why do I feel so darn crappy?

Like a failure?

Like I'm not good enough?

Like I'm never going to get a job if that interview didn't land me a job?

Why am I sad?

I get to spend more time with my kids. And that's really what I want. Right?

But I was SO confident the job was mine.

Make this yucky feeling go away.


It's amazing what one day can do. I'm feeling at peace with the decision that was made. I had the most wonderful day with my girls and realized I was taking my time with them for granted.

Not only did God not want me to get the job, he wanted to teach me a lesson in humility. Everything I've ever tried out for I've gotten. Cheerleading, show choir, dance team, other jobs. I don't know what it's like to "lose", and it was tough.

Home is where God wants me to be right now, and I'm okay with that.

Linked at Shell's.

21 cleansing comments:

Anonymous said...

You are an example to me. Your attitude is great! I'm glad you are at peace with the decision. Things happen the way they're supposed to. I'm a true believer in that. xoxo

Shell said...

I love how you can see that lesson in it. I have a hard time with that. I wonder why God says no.

But, it really does sound like it's for the best.

Thanks for linking up!

cfoxes33 said...

No matter what, God loves you and wants the best for you.

Tabatha said...

I completely understand.. I've been on teh job hunt, and have thought oh wow i got this.. only to find out they chose someone else or decided it was best to go from within... and i just keep reminding myself.. GOD has MY PLAN.. the one where hs is going to place me where I belong.

All we have to do is LISTEN and Believe! He teaches us each day!

Casey said...

I am sorry you didn't get the job but I am so glad that you were able to get something from God through it.

Much More Than Mommy said...

I loveloveLOVE how you wrote this!! I love your outlook, thank you for sharing this!

Kim - In Search of Me in Mommy said...

It's amazing - the process of allowed yourself to feel it...and you healed. And you can see to good on the other side of those feelings. Great post!

Beth said...

I have so been there. It feels like you've been rejected and that's hard to take. But the center of God's will is always the best place to be and that's where you are. :)

Stepping On Cheerios said...

Great attitude! When it's meant to be it will be and all that:)

Queen Bee said...

That was a great post! It's amazing when we can see God in the things in our life. I love how you have come to realize where he wants you and can grow through the disappointment. I don't like it when God says No either but He does it for a reason!

Mommy Lisa said...

Wow...perfect way to sort it out in your mind. Write down what you think the lesson is...


Jessica said...

Everything happens for a life motto! I love it! I also left you something at my blog! Come see! Glad you are having a better day!

Nikki said...

It usually takes a little time but you do realize that it is all in Gods hand and I truly believe that things happen for a reason. It sounds as though you believe that too!
I'm sure everyday, God will show you why you didn't get this particular only means that there is something better waiting for you!
So be Happy!!!

blueviolet said...

You know what that reminds me of? The verse that says, Be still and know that I am God.

Today you did, and you are at peace because of it.

Amanda said...

God works in ways that sometimes at the time we don't understand, but if we hold out and search for the why we usually can find it.

It's a blessing that you'll get to be with your girls at home, because their memories of that are the most important :)

Dysfunctional Mom said...

Job-hunting is brutal. It's really hard on the self-esteem. I'm so glad that you were able to see that it's His plan and you are where you are meant to be! For me, staying home with my kids was such a blessing and I wouldn't change those years for anything.

Nichol said...

Sorry you didn't get the job but you wrote this great. I remember getting interviews of jobs and I thought it was mine....and I got the call. I just kept trying. Everything happens for a reason.

Beth P. said...

I'm really sorry about the job, but your outlook on the situation is inspiring. God always seems to know exactly what is right. I hope to have the same frame of mind if/when I interview (hopefully soon!).

Di said...

Isn't it amazing what a difference a day makes in our attitude and perspective. I'm sorry you didn't get the job but yay for more time with the kids!

VKT said...

Perhaps you might consider calling the Principal or asking for a follow up appointment and being honest with him or her. Explain that you thought you had interviewed well and just want some honest feedback to help you with your next interview?

Don't feel crappy though. We know God never makes mistakes!

Kmama said...

I'm sorry you didn't get the job, but what a wonderful learning experience for you!! God does have a plan!

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