blessed... and a little bit of luck

I'm joining Chelle at The Winey Mommy on why I'm lucky.

With the grace of God, I don't really believe in "luck" per say. In fact, a couple years ago I wrote about my mixed feelings with the phrase, "good luck" here. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. But overall, yes, I'm lucky. Because I'm blessed.

I'm blessed with children I look at everyday and think, "Holy crap. I am their mom. Me. I am a mom. And these are MY kids. MINE."

I am blessed with a husband who loves and takes care of us.

I am blessed with family and friends who I love.

I am blessed with loyal readers like you.

And today, I really am feeling lucky.

BECAUSE I WON THIS....

Kodak Zi6 HD Pocket Video Camera

at 5 Minutes for Mom's Pre-Ultimate Blog Party giveaway!

Hubby is enjoying the taste of his anti-blogging words as he EATS them!

WA-BAM!

What a spectacular birthday present.

So now, I can capture all those blessed "lucky" moments and keep them forever and ever.

my happy pills {aka anti-depressants}

I call them happy pills, because anti-depressants sound so... depressing. ;)

In high school, I was the "fun one." I was voted "best personality" and "most outgoing" in my senior yearbook. I loved my life. Great friends, great boyfriend. And then it happened. On graduation night my junior year, I got an MIP. It was a big deal to me. And I made a commitment to myself and others that I would not drink anymore during high school.

My best friends? They partied. My boyfriend {now hubby}? He partied. So I went to parties. I drove my drunk annoying friends home. It's funny. You think being drunk is fun and funny until you see what it looks like sober.

This got old real quick.

Suddenly, I wasn't feeling like fun ole me anymore, and I really started struggling. Depression runs in my family. In fact, 4/6 of my dad's siblings are bipolar. Hubby {then boyfriend} had HUGE issues with me being on medication, and for years I let him convince me that it was "all in my head." We both know now that's not the case.

It's a chemical imbalance.

However, because of that insecurity I tried to come off the happy pills several times. GUESS WHAT PEOPLE! If you're feeling better and ready to come of your meds, in most cases it's BECAUSE of the meds you're feeling better! It took me a long time to figure this out.

I did go off the happy pills during pregnancy with Otter and The Baby. Number one reason Hubby doesn't want more kids! I was taking Well-Butrin with Raven which is considered safe. However that med never seemed to work for me.

When I told my current doc about my history of depression he suggested I start Zoloft as soon as The Baby was born. I was concerned that it would interfere with breastfeeding, but he assured me it wouldn't, and Dr. Google confirmed. :)

I started my happy pills the day I went home from the hospital, and honestly, I haven't felt this damn good since high school! I'm feeling like me again! All grown up of course. ;)

I've accepted that I'm probably going to be on these forever, and I'm okay with that. Hubby will now be the first to tell you THEY WORK! He loves the happy me and can't believe he ever doubted the need for happy pills!

Are you feeling depressed? anxious? tired all the time? no energy? Please do NOT be ashamed or embarrassed to get some help. And if you're already on meds and you still feel this way, talk to your doctor about trying something else. It took me years to find a med that worked for me because I didn't know there was a difference. They don't all work the same!

Be the best you can be for your family. They deserve it!


Linked at Things I Can't Say.

post its: may or may not

Linked up at MckMama and Adventures of a Wanna-Be Supah Mommy.

movie monday #7

Welcome to Movie Monday! Click the pic and/or grab the button on my sidebar to play along!


Hubby and I didn't get around to watching our Netflix movie this weekend, so I'm going to share one of my faves.


The Family Man: A fast-lane investment broker, offered the opportunity to see how the other half lives, wakes up to find that his sports car and girlfriend have become a mini-van and wife. PG-13

This movie came out about ten years ago but if you haven't seen it you MUST! It is the most precious story about the awesomeness of family life. Hubby and I do not have the same taste in movies and it can be difficult to please us both! Usually we just take turns choosing, but this is a movie that even he loved. I think it was the first movie I ever saw with Tea Leoni and she was fabulous! Nicholas Cage and Don Cheadle were great too. You can watch instantly on Netflix.

prayer is power: a breather

I have a couple feature stories lined up for the coming weeks, if you have a story about how the power of prayer has affected your life, please email me at aliasblogger {at} yahoo.com.

For now.....

Take a step back.....

Just breathe.

Pray.

Jesus loves you!

Have a great week.

THE WINNER and an award

CONGRATULATIONS Chelle! You won my giveaway!

What do we have for her Johnny?

A KidKraft sling bookshelf in your choice of natural, primary, or pastel colors!

YEAH!

(clap clap clap clap clap clap clap}

I spent 56 hours last night deleting all the giveaway comments because I so missed my loyal commenters widget. I'll be doing giveaway entries different from now on!


Anyhoo.....

If my memory serves me correctly, 3 people have given me this award over the course of a month. Thank you to B Sparkly and Amanda K for this award! Are you the other person who gave it to me? I'm so sorry I don't remember. Please love me still.

Okay, so here we go with the rules again. {I had to swagbuck them again.}
-Add the logo to your blog.
-Link to the person from whom you've received the award.
-Nominate seven blogs of your choice.
-Leave a message on the nominees’ blogs telling them of their award.

I know some of you have received this award already, but not from me. :)

1. My Little World
2. Winey Mommy
3. Cultivating Rosebuds
4. Adventures of a wife and mom
5. Half Past Kissin' Time
6. kssnnikkel
7. Mommy's Nest

you dialed the wrong number

The title has absolutely no significance. I just have Bebe in my head from this week's Just Dance video.

Today's the last day for the sling bookshelf giveaway. Enter here.

Yesterday, a mommy at Otter's gymnastics told me I looked great and asked if I exercised every day. When I told her I never exercised she punched me in the face. Okay. Not really. You can bet that was the highlight of my day.

Going to visit my college roommate tomorrow with only the boob baby in tow. So excited.

Otter had his spring concert this week. It was so cute but I did not enjoy one minute of it. All I could think of was, "The last time you were on that stage you had a seizure, is it going to happen again?"

Now, a few letters...

Dear Tooth Soap~
$100 cash giveaway for Friday Follow? You rock!
Signed, feelin lucky

Dear Mrs. 4444~
Thanks for the side note explaining that your name is pronounced Mrs. Fours. I was getting tired of saying Mrs. four four four four.
Signed, no longer wasting syllables

Dear baby girl~
You can't laugh and cry at the same time. It sends Mommy mixed signals.
Signed, laughing preferred

Dear Raven~
Next time you choose to say to me, "Don't talk to me like that," you should remember who gives the spankings around here.
Signed, empty threats

Dear Safari~
Dell's doctor thought it would be good for him if I gave you a try. I'm just not sure it's going to work out. I admit I've been cheating on you with Explorer, but come on, Netflix does not support our relationship. You have good qualities too, but I don't know if I'm ready to make a commitment.
Signed, mixed emotions

Dear new friend~
Thanks for inviting me to your Arbonne party, even if it is only to get you more free stuff.
Signed, I HAVE A NEW FRIEND!

Dear Sears.com~
Your sales rock, your shipping sucks. I paid just as much for shipping as I did the dresses.
Signed, dresses: $7 each, shipping: $7, my pretty matching girls: priceless

Are they cute or are they cute?



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just dance yer bloggy off: bebe

This is the first week I didn't get my high score on video. This game is really starting to piss me off. I WOULD APPRECIATE A LITTLE CONSISTENCY!

I wish I would've positioned the camera to tape Spiderman and Cinderella. Have I mentioned my children are in costume at least 15 hours a day? Raven is ALWAYS Cinderella, and Otter rotates 12 different superhero costumes. Ya....12.

Anyhoo...


High score: {on video} 7481

people in review #8

Heidi Montag Fires New Psychic Manager

She will now be managing her own career as a "strong and independent women." I just threw up in my mouth a little.

Who Is Jesse James's Alleged Mistress?

You cheated on Sandra Bullock with that?

POLL: Who Should Be the Next Bond Girl?

I voted Megan Fox, but Freida Pinto is in the lead. Heidi Montag holds 2% of the votes, of which are all from her.

Heidi Montag Doesn't Want Men Telling Her What to Do

You picked a winner of a husband.

Sandra Bullock Gets Outpouring of Love, Support from Fans

WE LOVE YOU SSAAAAAAANNNNNDDDDDDRAAAAAAA!

Tiger Woods: I Was Living a Lie

No shit Sherlock.

Break Out the Leg Warmers: Jane Fonda Launching World Fitness Day

When I was little I used to do her workout with my mom. Oh the memories.

Elin Nordegren's Masters Dilemma: Go or Lay Low?

Basically, she doesn't want to be with Tiger but is doing it so the kids can be "well-grounded." Not so sure that's gonna work.

What Hillary Clinton Will Forgive (and Won't)

Stupidity is forgivable, meanness is not. Riiiiggggght. Cheating on your wife is not mean at all.

POLL: Who Should Play Captain America?

I voted Chris Evans, even though Channing Tatum is my boyfriend.

Jenny McCarthy Wants to Know Why Men Cheat

She's writing a book on love and lust and is looking for answers on twitter. Careful, your username may appear in the book.

Which Dancing Couple Was Your Premiere-Night Favorite?

I thought Ochocinco looked pretty darn good. Who do you think is gonna win? And did anyone else think it was kinda weird that Gia was sitting with Vienna?

VIDEO: Kate Gosselin's Dancing with the Stars Debut

She kinda sucked I thought. Hating the hair.

Jesse James Hoping for Reconciliation with Sandra Bullock

You would.

It's Official: Katherine Heigl Has Left Grey's Anatomy

Ya we knew that but thanks for the confirmation.

POLL: What Should Katherine Heigl's Next Role Be?

Just being a mother was not listed.

Jesse James: Were There Other Women?

I believe that would be a yes. May I say again? Who cheats on Sandra Bullock?

The Hills to Fade Into the Sunset

Can I get an AMEN!

BUZZ: Paternity Test Confirms Beyoncé's Dad a Dad Again

Holy crapoli!

my second identity

Like many of you, when I started this blog I decided to remain anonymous. It just gave me peace of mind I guess. Living in such a small town, if someone wanted to find me it wouldn't be difficult. Therefore I choose to keep those details to myself.

I have let you in on a couple secrets since I first started, like my first name and the state I live in, as well as pictures of my family.

The people I know IRL, {I now know what that means thanks to Semi-Slacker Mom} don't know about this blog. {Except for you Vicki, you stalker.} :) And that's where it gets complicated.

I was hanging with a new friend the other day {YES! I made a friend} and she asked what my hobbies were. I said blogging, and that's pretty much it. Well my family blog I post to every 2-4 weeks doesn't exactly make blogging a hobby. Difficult to justify that one.

I guess I could tell friends about this blog, but it's nice to have some place to go to vent and talk about whatever the flip I want. I do try to be careful, in case I would be outed. I just don't want everyone in town reading my personal thoughts, especially when I start teaching again. Because in a small town, it's hard enough to keep your personal life personal the way it is. People don't blog around here. Not like we do. They don't get it.

Some of you have become friends. I laugh when you laugh. I cry when you cry. I "just dance" when you do. And I thank you for that.

This blog is me. But it's not "me". Does that make sense? I LOVE my kids' names and I dislike the names I've given them here. They don't fit. Sometimes, this blog is such a big part of my life that I feel more like Messy Mommy than Brooke. Two of the same, but not.

I remember when I told hubby about this blog, he was upset that I had kept it from him for so long. Said he felt like I was living another life. This blog is not another life, it's mine, but I understand where he's coming from.

I find myself being put in situations more and more where I have to decide which me I'm going to be. Do I want to sign up for this as Messy Mommy? Or do I want to sign up for this as Brooke? Or do I dare combine the two? It's starting to get to me a little.

I'm totally glad I'm not in the witness protection program. That would suck.

Have you chosen to blog anonymously? Why or why not? Do you struggle to keep your identities separate?

For more Pour Your Heart Out Posts, visit Shell.

mommy, don't do the monster

Word to the wise. Don't tuck your children into bed while you look like this....


It's highly likely it will give them nightmares.

I roared at Otter and I swear he about started crying.

Raven was so scared I had to go wash my face and come back to tell her it was just me. "Mommy, please don't do the monster." She was terrified.

For more Wordless Wednesday, visit 5 Minutes for Mom.

For more Wordful Wednesday, visit Seven Clown Circus.

this or that: makeup

Do you buy your makeup at a discount/drugstore or some type of specialty makeup store?

Since I was a junior in high school, I've used BeautiControl's wet/dry foundation. I buy it on ebay. That's the only "professional" make-up I've ever used. I get the rest at Wal-Mart. Love Cover Girl's eye corrector and concealer. Sephora? Nearest is over 3 hours away. Never used it and probably never will. Ulta? Never heard of it.

So ya, I'm cheap.

For more This or That, visit Winey Mommy.

movie monday #6

Welcome to Movie Monday! Click the pic and/or grab the button on my sidebar to play along.



Couples Retreat: A comedy centered around four couples who settle into a tropical-island resort for a vacation. While one of the couples is there to work on the marriage, the others fail to realize that participation in the resort's therapy sessions is not optional.

It seems after a movie is hyped up so much when I see it I'm disappointed. Knowing that, I went into this movie not expecting much, and I really liked it. I think Vince Vaughn's humor in all his movies is hysterical. This one was no different. He's awesome. Hubby and I were laughing pretty hard during some parts. It featured quite a few well-known actors. I would recommend it!


Monsters vs Aliens: When a meteorite from outer space hits a young woman and turns her into a giant monster, she is taken to a secret government compound where she meets a ragtag group of monsters also rounded up over the years.

What is it with kid's movies lately with adult humor? There was a couple parts where I was laughing and Otter looked at me like, "What's so funny?" This didn't have inappropriate adult humor like some others. I guess it keeps you interested. It was a cute movie. Seth Rogen is hilarious as always. I didn't know Reese Witherspoon was the main character until after I started watching. Not the greatest movie of all time by any means, but I would recommend it.

prayer is power: kssnnikkel

Please grab the Prayer is Power button on my sidebar. Click the button to post your requests and praises, {link welcome but not required} and please pray for those listed.


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Please pray for Mrs. P @ A Little Pink in a World of Camo. She lost her husband this week. My heart aches for her and her baby who will never meet her daddy.



And please pray for Christy @ Just Thinkin' and her family as her future brother-in-law was just diagnosed with Guillain-Barre Syndrome.
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The following is a story shared by Lisa @ kssnnikkel on how the power of prayer has affected her friend's life.



I have a friend who worked 12+ hours a day as a nurse in a well known hospital in Little Rock. She was very active and always on the go. In April of '08 her legs got tired and with 5 to 6 weeks she was no longer able to work and walking with a walker.
She begin falling a lot and had loads of bruises to show for it. Her doctors did so many test I'm surprised that she hasn't turned into a human sponge!

She was told it could be lupus or lymes disease. She ask for prayer and I and many others added her to our prayer list at our churches. I even prayed she had lyme disease..I figured it was the lesser of the two evils.
She wasn't getting any answers and the drs. seemed to be dragging their feet so she went to the Cleveland clinic and had even more test ran. They also came up with nothing.

Still we prayed asking God to give the drs. wisdom to not only diagnose her but to help her have some relief. At this point she was in a wheelchair if she had to go any where and understandably so she was down in the dumps. She rarely rested, the meds they gave her didn't agree with her and she was just tired of the symptoms being treated and not knowing what was causing them.

I and I'm sure many others prayed daily for her and finally through her brother who contacted a dr. friend she was able to find a doctor who took even more test. Some of these test were very painful but he finally found out she had Muscular Dystrophy.
He started her on some shots that she has to give herself every day and is doing much better.
She had stopped driving in 2008 because of the weakness in her legs and when I talked to her Wednesday she told me she had started driving again. She is still using a cane but she has come so very far and I know without a doubt it was prayer that got her this far. It's a very powerful thing!

The following is a personal experience of Lisa's.

In Oct. 2004 I was going thru a divorce and had very little money. I ask God to just help me thru the rough parts. I knew He would get me what I needed.

Around late November we were getting freeze warnings and my house was not underpinned or the pipes insulated. There was a young man that come into the store I worked at and he said he would insulate them for $20. I said ok because I knew it would cost so much more if one burst! I was rushing from one job to another and ran in to my moms to leave the money for him. I told her to tell him to bring the change into the store and I would give him bills for it. I had rummaged around and came up with like a five dollar bill,a few ones and the rest was change. A lot of it was pennies!

So I'm rushing to get to work but I stop at the mailbox and there's a tiny envelope in there addressed to me in crayon. I open it and a little card has "We love You" wrote in red crayon with two twenty dollar bills tucked in it. To this day i don't know who sent me that money but I do know it came at the exact time I needed it.

Thanks so much for sharing Lisa!

Sometimes God helps us even when we don't ask for it.

Would you like to share your story on how the power of prayer has affected your life? Email me at aliasblogger {at} yahoo.com

God bless your week!

aloha friday fragments and follow

Welcome Friday Followers! Please feel free to not leave a copy and pasted comment. Loves!

Spring break at my parents rocked. I literally sat on my arse all day and read blogs. My dad looked a tad concerned, "Is this what you do every day?" Um....no....I'm taking advantage of this opportunity while you're with the kids. Ya, that's it.

I got my hair did last week. It was so fabulous to talk to a non-0,3,6-yr-old for an hour. TOTALLY worth the money I could've saved by using a box.

If you missed it, it took me 6 days to find my debit card that Raven put in the washing machine. Six days. Here's the best part. When I told Hubby about it he said, "Sounds like some good blog material." Oh honey!! You FINALLY get it don't you?! And btw, I already posted about it a couple hours ago.

Raven pulled off the inside door knob and locked herself in her room. THANK GOD Hubby was around to get her out. He had to use a hammer to bust off the door knob. Good thing she's not claustrophobic. I would have been FREAKING out!

In case you're wondering, my love language is NOT touch. But I'm going to stop there, because I'm seeing the potential for a future post.

My new blog design is on the schedule for the 26th. OF APRIL! Good thing I'm a patient person. PAH!

There are A BILLION giveaway linkies out there! Bringing me to my Aloha Friday question, for more visit An Island Life...

Who hosts your favorite giveaway link-ups? Do you look at just 1 or more?

I think the giveaway linkies should be from inlinkz.com so we can see pictures. I'm seriously thinking of starting one.

Yesterday I followed 93 Medela Mom Mavens on twitter, which led me to #bfcafe, a party hosted by zealandsmom. Shari Criso was there and I about peed my pants. I told her she was famous. I was all sorts of giddy talking to a famous person. When I shared my giddiness with Hubby he said, "Who the heck is Shari Criso?" I grabbed her DVD, "HER.......IT'S.......HER!" He thought I was a freak.

KidKraft Sling Bookshelf giveaway ends next week. Enter here.

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And Follow Me Friday.

just dance yer bloggy off: cotton eye joe

So sore.

This is my all-time fave song at weddings. Here, not so much.



Please don't give me guff for not moving my legs during that one part. I couldn't do it anymore.

High Score: 6823

people in review #7

Gerard Butler Says Jennifer Aniston Is Like Family
How about you MAKE her family!

Katherine Heigl 'Not Likely' Returning to Grey's Anatomy
:(

POLL: Lindsay Lohan's E-Trade Lawsuit – You Decide the Outcome!
58% voted that Lohan should pay every commerical viewer $10 for enduring more of her drama. Not EVERYTHING revolves around you LINDSSSSSSSSSSEY.

Heidi Montag's New Psychic Manager: I Hear Dead People
You'll fit right in with the family.

Camila Alves's Motherhood Secrets? Have Fun – and Don't Stress!
Believe me, I wouldn't be stressing either if Matthew McConaughey fathered my children.

David Schwimmer Is Engaged!
...to a woman 20 years younger! Seriously that would be like my husband marrying our 6-yr-old's girlfriend.

Rielle Hunter: I Will Love John Edwards 'Till Death Do Us Part'
What people will do for a little publicity. Gag.

Spencer Pratt Leaves The Hills to Fight Cyber Crime
I think your best option would be to dig a hole and live there. Don't forget to take your wife.

What Did Gisele Bündchen Really Want to Name Her Son?
River.

How to Win Over Miley Cyrus
Like I care.

It's Official: Tiger Woods Announces Return to Golf
{enter sarcastic woots here}

Joey Fatone Says His 9 Year Old Feeds, Burps Newborn Daughter
Get outta bed 9 yr old! It's your turn to feed the baby!

Kendra Wilkinson to Dress Baby Hank as Leprechaun for St. Pat's
He's her first.

Off-Duty Hollywood: Jessica Simpson and Ken Paves Have a Lunch Date
There's a shocker.

Demi Moore Knew Ashton Kutcher Was Special 'Right Away'
Like when you saw him in the nursery when your daughter was born?

Gerard Butler Is Sweet on Jennifer Aniston's Cupcakes
Makes me want a cupcake real bad.

POLL: Which of Jen Aniston's Leading Men Is Your Favorite?
Vince Vaughn. 39% agree.

Why Betty White Is Perfect for SNL
Cause she's funny. Duh.

Seventh Child on the Way for Kevin Costner
Holy macker daps! He's 55! SEVEN kids? P.S. Kevin Costner is like the hottest older guy ever, no?

Kendra Wilkinson Reveals Drug Abuse, Suicidal Thoughts
I'm sure posing naked and sleeping with a 90-yr-old man will make that all better.

Source: Sandra Bullock Has Left the Family Home
What? Weren't they voted like best couple at the Oscars or something? All lovey dovey and smoochie woochie? Rumors of infidelity. Who would cheat on Sandra Bullock?

Kirstie Alley: It's Not a Scientology Diet
Why not? You've tried every other diet on the planet.

Elizabeth Edwards 'Disgusted' by Rielle Hunter's Photos but Has Moved On
Me too Elizabeth.

the funniest thing EVER

This was too good to wait for Friday Fragments, plus it TOTALLY deserves it's own post!

Remember last week I mentioned in a fragment that Raven had lost my debit card? I searched high and low for that damn thing. Moved all the furniture, emptied the toy boxes, emptied the hampers, I even went through the TRASH! No findie.

I FINALLY got to the laundry today, and guess where I found my debit card that I've been searching for for SIX DAYS....

IN THE WASHING MACHINE!!!

So if I just would have done the laundry like a normal person I would've found it right away. The scary thing...did she hide it there because she knew I wouldn't find it? Has this little 3-yr-old gotten inside my head and figured me out? Dun dun dun.

fear of sids

Yes, it's something all of us as mothers worry about, right?

When Otter was a newborn, a stupid, idiotic, dumb concerned nurse thought he was having circulation problems because of his coloring. She thought he looked blue. Looking back on it now, I'm sure he didn't, but I guess we'll never know.

Anyhoo, all tests were normal but for "peace of mind," the doctor sent us home with an apnea monitor to put on him at night, as that type of thing has been connected with SIDS. That stupid machine was ANYTHING but PEACE my friends. You strap it on their chest and if they stop breathing an alarm goes off. A very LOUD alarm. Unfortunately it was very touchy, so if he moved a lot it would move, causing the alarm to sound. I cannot even begin to describe how I felt the first time it went off. Even when I knew it had just probably slid down again, I freaked. What if?

It got to the point where the monitor just wasn't worth it anymore. I went mental. I mean mental. I had that sick to my stomach feeling all the time. I researched SIDS. I researched and researched and researched. Some things made me feel better, others worse. I went through major guilt for not trying harder to breastfeed. What an AWFUL thing to not know if this is going to take your baby's life.

I slept in the recliner with Otter at night. My family was concerned because I was obsessing. One time at work, a cop walked in and I froze, sure that he was going to tell me my baby was dead. I'm sure he thought I had murdered someone seeing my fear as I stood there frozen, unable to wait on him. Again may I say I was obsessed? or POssessed.

I remember my mom taking me by the shoulders and saying, "Brooke, you have to get a grip. If God wants to take him, he's going to take him, no matter what you try and do to stop Him."

It hit me. She was right. Now I'm not going to tell you it was all better after that. I still struggled. "Giving it to God" is something I still really struggle with to this day.

Ya, I still worry. It's no longer an obsession, but you can't honestly tell me that as a mother you've never pictured yourself going to wake your baby only to find she can't be woken. Maybe you haven't, I have. I'm horrible at playing the what-if game.

I gasp in silence when I see parents put their babies on their tummies to sleep, but I've also had babies that were content to sleep on their backs. I can't say that I wouldn't have if that's the ONLY way my baby would sleep. I don't judge. I'm sure some people gasp at me when I tell them my first child wasn't breastfed at all and my second only a short time. We all make our own choices that work best for us, no matter what we "should do."

I know they've learned a lot about SIDS, but in a world full of technology it's hard to believe they don't have it figured out yet, but then I guess the same goes for cancer, etc.

For more info about Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, visit the American SIDS Institute. Also, consider participating in Spring for SIDS on SIDS Awareness Day, Friday, April 23.

For any mother out there who has lost your precious baby my prayers are with you. You are a stronger person than I could ever imagine.

As a mother, what are your biggest fears?


For more Pour Your Heart Out posts, visit Shell.

post its: it's the internet's fault

Ya this seriously took like an HOUR to post. I WILL MISS YOU!!!!!! WWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

good times good times

I went to my Junior & Senior proms with Hubby.

I LOVE getting all glitzed up, so prom was always my fave. In fact a few years ago I wore one of my prom dresses to our church's Valentine's banquet. I love reliving my glory days. ;)

My high school has a dinner before the prom so we went to that both years.

Junior year we shared a limo with 2 other couples. It rocked!

Junior year theme: Moments to Remember
me and my bestie
After prom we went to Casino Night. A dealer dared me to stand on a chair in the middle of the "casino" and cluck like a chicken for more money. I did it of course, and let me tell you it was well worth it. With auction prizes such as DVD players, TVs, mini refrigerators, etc. I got something off the "if you didn't win anything" table, a FLIPPIN CURLING IRON PEOPLE! Needless to say I was pissed. My chicken performance didn't get me anything but a stupid curling iron.

Senior year theme: Woodstock. Ya, you read that right. Woodstock.

I love love love this picture.
My bestie and I didn't buy matching dresses on purpose.
We're just that in-sync. And in the spirit of Woodstock...
PEACE!
Hubby and I didn't make it Casino Night that year. We "fell asleep."

For more All About MEme Monday prom stories, visit Supah and MommyBrain.